Virginia remember her brother Joey

My brother is and will forever be my hero. My brother is just like any brother, he picked on me, played dumb tricks on me and always, ALWAYS looked out for me. He's the type where if I came home crying he'd say, who am I beating up now? He always had his eye on me. He's my big brother and would do anything for me. Recently we would talk more about things, because I was getting older and we could relate more. I miss him coming in my room and laying on my bed and just talking to me about things. I am so proud to say my brother is Joey P. and yes I am using present tense. I hate it how people say oh, you had a brother. NO. I HAVE a brother and will always HAVE a brother. There are four kids in my family and that will never change. No one can replace him and I think about Joey every minute of every day. My family's lives are forever changed. The assholes who did this I hope feel pain. We lost someone who meant so much to an unimaginative amount of people. This isn't fair and my brother needs justice. I can no longer watch violent movies because of what happened. My thoughts of everything are incessant. He didn't deserve this, he was such a wonderful person and did nothing wrong. I think every day,"why couldn't it have been me?" But with all of the sorrow in my life I have no doubt in my mind that he is in heaven watching over all of us and not wanting us to be sad. It is just hard. I constantly find myself calling my brother's voicemail just to hear his voice. Over and over. I love him more then words can express and will always miss him and his gorgeous smile.

When my brother was taken from us I had a very detailed dream about a month later that felt so real. It started out with me walking down the hallway and I see my brother Joey hugging my family members as if he was visiting us. So I walked up and my brother greets me so happily. He hugged and kissed me and said. "Don't worry about me, I'm fine. Stop worrying about things. Life's too short." I just smiled and then asked, "so how is it up there?(heaven)" and he replied,"it's so pretty, it's really bright and colorful. I get to fly around (and he flapped his arms as if impersonating his wings) and said, "yeah I get to fly around and I live in this HUGE white house," and Adri, my sister, asked,"whiter then my house in Stockton?" Joey said,"yes waaaay whiter." Then we all sat down at the kitchen table and Austin was in a bar stool and Joey turns to him and puts out his hand for Austin to shake and says,"Thank you." To me, I'm pretty positive he meant thank you for being there for my sister. Which was sweet. Then Joey got up as if it was time to leave and go back to Heaven. So he hugged and kissed each of us and kept saying,"don't worry." That concluded my dream.

I feel I had this dream for a reason. The night before I had this dream I had a horrible day. I wasn't doing too great in golf and I was under so much pressure to do good and I wanted to make all league for my brother. So I was stressing out for not doing well. Then I had this dream and I felt a sense of reassurance. He told me not to worry about things and he said life is too short. After that dream I played the game of golf because I loved the sport, I tried my best, and gave it my all. This season I did make All League. I did it for my brother. During the summer he really pushed me to practice because he knew I had the potential. I hope he is looking down on me and is proud of my accomplishment. I will miss you and think about you forever Joey Anthony. Protect us down here. I await the day we get to meet again. I Love you.

Love always and forever,
Your Sister Virginia
xoxoxoxoxo